Lance looked at me the other day and said, “I think these past couple weeks have been the hardest of all.” That was no exaggeration. If we had a swimming pool it would have been filled with our tears. Without going into too much detail, since we returned from Puerto Rico, Lance hasn’t been feeling that great. As a couple, we have had to endure some of the most emotionally draining conversations imaginable…ones that some day I hope to encourage all couples to have now and not at a more difficult time in your life. I know one couple that has these conversations all the time and I used to think to myself, “That’s so strange.” But they were definitely onto something. But I will have to share those at another time because right now it’s too painful. This path is not for the faint of heart.
So my purpose of writing this, is to ask for your collective prayers. I met with a woman last week who was a retired pastor. I said, “How do you pray?” I asked for myself as well as for others because I know for some it’s not natural or just the word “prayer” does not resonate with them. She said praying can be deep breathing, lighting a candle, it can be drumming, dancing, singing, it can be being in nature, running along the beach…it’s just about being in your heart. So for all of you, who know and love Lance please pray for him in whatever way that has meaning for you. As I write this, I am looking at his sweet sleeping face and thinking where is my magic fairy dust to make all of this go away? Well I don’t have any magic dust but we do have an amazing community of friends that I am calling on to send love, prayers, thoughts & light to our man.
Every time I talk to my dad on the phone he says, “I’m looking at your picture right now.” I know the picture well. Probably his proudest moment as a photographer. The irony is not lost on me that I am probably the same age as my daughter is now…around 7 years old, running in front of a water fountain in San Francisco…everything is blurry except me running in mid air and I am perfectly in focus with a big smile on my face…not a care in the world. Can’t help but think, sure would be nice to be that little girl right now.
With love from both of us,